A slice of my life at 5am

Ramblings

This morning i was all set I had done two bottles. one for my 2 year old with his usual 9oz's of fresh milk and the other one for baby D with half formula half milk.....

D woke first at 5am and i gave him his bottle, sitting back drinking my coffee i smiled happily thinking atleast he is drinking it.
he left about 2 ounces and i thought kewl he drank 7. D went in his playpen while i finished my coffee and at 5:45am i heard J
moving about upstairs.

I put J in his pram while i heated his bottle, cartoons came on the telly so he wasnt bothered waiting.... when his bottle was ready out popped his meme (soother) and in popped his bottle.

I had walked away when i heard a crash i turned quickly to see J's bottle half way across the room strange i thought cause J has no trouble drinking his milk. I gave it to him again and he quite plainly said "ewwwwwww"

Oh god realising my mistake.

D had fresh milk and J was give the two halves
looking from the bottle to D and quite surprised he had drank 7 oz's of fresh milk
laughs making J his bottle up again

Shaking my head..........."well i never"

new bed

I got J a bed today, wow it is hard to believe J is moving from his cot to a bed.

Feels like a giant step for a 2 year old to take but it is time,
he has started to climb out of hs cot. It is becoming too dangerous,
so yes a bed...... ~smiles~

I was going to get him a bed when we move to our new house but i read in a leaflet when to introduce a bed. it clearly said not when you move to a new house so im glad iam doing it now....

should be very different for him, but iam glad he was with me when i bought it,
goodness my lil man is growing up.

Kids & Cribs

I dont know where to begin to tell you about the shop near to me, they decorated for christmas, tree lights and paintings on the windows, they also had Santy hanging from the ceiling in a couple of places and they had a crib.

Baby jesus was placed in the crib on christmas day minus a missing toe which was pointed out by some child while i was showing my child (J who will be 2 in Feb) J was shocked hearing this and when a crowd of kids appeared and they too were shocked questions began to be asked.

I so tried not to giggle, me and other mums and dads looked at eachother then down to their feet and i thought give it a minute and someone will start whistling......

"Mammy Mammy wheres baby Jesus toe"? i heard one kid ask his mum and we all looked to her for an answer, but she just took her kid by the hand and told him she will tell him as they shopped. Silly woman i so thought she was gunna save the day....

questions.......... lol kids ask the best ones

Thankfully J forgot all about baby jesus toe and today when we were in the shop J noticed the crib had been taken down. "Where baby JJ gone aww no moo cow no quib"? J asked me pulling on my coat. awww i said patting his head saying that he will be there next year.

Big mistake for me was to mention this story to TG later for A my 7 year old to overhear....... "awwwww where is baby jesus Mum ?" "His in heaven A" "What, his dead omg when did he die"

shakes my head.....

socks & shoes

I wear my sisters socks, they are pink, I would never have bought them in a fit. Now they have a hole in them, I threw them in the bin afew times and each time I have scooped them out. They are stuffed in my bra drawer now. I see them each time I open that drawer, I smile each time.

Its my mums fault she gave me afew bags of clothes that belonged to Ann & Michele, she kept Michele's shoes 'cause she is a size 7. I got all Ann's shoes 'cause she is a 5 like me, I dont wear any of Ann's shoes they live in a bag in a cupboard. I cant throw them out or give them away, I take them out sometimes my finger removes the dust and for a silent moment they are being worn by Ann and Ann is off to work or something. Ann's coat is in a bag too along with lots of her things. Her cook book is my favourite untouched by others i'm the only one who looks in it, I sit carefully at the table each page turned with ease, my blues scan the pages. She left little messages on each page, a recipe here and a recipe written there. I love that book so much.

I dont think Mum has worn any of Michele's shoes either, their just there in another bag, another reminder. God I hate reminders and yet sometimes I need them to cope.

Michele's denim jacket is in my wardrobe, her tissue and a bus ticket is still in her pocket, her perfume has gone but i still smell it.

Oh god im rambling.... excuse me

January 2006

Sat 7th January 2006

I dont know where the night finished and morning began, its all blended in together. I had to wet my fingers to open my eyes, my eyes took a while to focus on the clock. Groaning 04:45am my body switches to a unknown mode and i find myself switching the kettle on.

Baby D is stiring again. I put J's bottle on aswell, all the while folding clothes, switching the water on and making myself a coffee. Morning DD says J to his brother, they gargle together and murmur the odd bot bot my way Ma Ma they both say together each getting louder and louder until that moment of joy when their bottles arrive and they smile whispering one last Ma before they guzzle burp and fart, typical boys!

Sitting back on the couch watching them drink as i sip my coffee nodding that they are worth it and so what its not yet 5am.

Sun 8th January 2006

I love sundays, I feel like it is the only good day of the week for eating ~lol~

what can i say i love good ol' home cooking. My mum is simply the best at cooking anything, roast dinners her favourite. ~laughs~ remembering i gave up cabbage for lent as a kid, now i want second helpings. Mmmm and parsnips omg yummy......

I think we only go to mums on a sunday to be fed and watered for the day.....

I was naughty scraping out the mince out of the mince pies and filling it with cream instead. I had to eat it over the bin, god they were so messy but oooh so nice.

Mon 9th January 2006

A was back in school today, he tried every trick in the book trying to get out of it but by the time i picked him up this afternoon he was okay about going tomorrow.

Later we watched Harry Potter & the chamber of secrets, J loves it. I, myself nearly know it off by heart seeing as it is the only thing J wants to watch. He only watches Dobby at the start, the cake part and the car & train part. He laughs so much, could almost have a long conversation to J about Poppa, as he calls him.

Now my babies are in bed, A too and the house is silent, till morning hits.

Oh did i tell you that i think my Mum is losing it.... laughs her and my Aunt B have got it into their minds that the more tea they drink the bigger their boobs get. They said its the milk ~lol~ They suggested i stop drinking coffee and start on the tea, hmm even though im happy with what i've got. I do sometimes wonder will i turn out like my mum, she has long white hair to her waist and omg her boobs are something else, laughs maybe iam losing it, here iam talking about my mums boobs but hell i can fit my head in her cup lolOh god i got to stop talking about my mums boobs, but she started it. laughs~ thinking about the knickers she got me, damn woman needs locking up, nope nope my lips are sealed im not telling.

Tuesday 10th January 2006

This day last year I stopped smoking. I cannot believe I made it a year.

Woo Hoo!

Crossing fingers for TG as He gives up on Thursday.